It doesn’t matter how young or old you are, how long you’ve walked with the Lord; the truth is, our education from Him always continues.

Now, whether we’re willing to accept it or not can be a different matter.

I am by nature a planner, a scheduler, so I can be fully aware of all that is going on in my world, so I’m not surprised. God is showing me, even at my age, that sometimes we just have to learn in an even deeper way who He is, that He truly is our Shepherd, and all that means.

For me, it has been in this last year to stop trying to control my life and listen to Him, trust Him, to guide, provide, and protect in a different way. It’s funny sometimes how we can say we are not afraid, but that buried doubt about our own abilities as we grow older can wrap a layer of fear around us, and we don’t even know or recognize it exists. Until we surrender even more to God and He lovingly shows us again that He is the shepherd of our lives. Because we have submitted to Him, we can trust Him and hear His voice speak truth to us.

Sometimes that truth is difficult to hear. But there is freedom in accepting it, submitting to it, trusting it.

I am not writing like I used to. That used to bother me because I felt I wasn’t living up to what I had determined to be my responsibility as His disciple. To share my writing life as a pillar of testimony to all He has done.

My fiction is still happening at a much slower pace. Obviously, my blogging is not scheduled as it once was, but as led by my Lord, the blogs will continue to appear. The difference is, I gave up control. I got peace in return, and the pressure to be what I used to be is no longer there.

I strive now at a much slower pace. I’m clearing things out of my life as I simplify it. But the drive to learn more of Him is still a part of who I am. I’ll never know it all here on earth. But I can learn more and more. That keeps the stress due to errors and troubled times down because His presence means His peace.

The worldly view of perfection can rob us of so many things unless we can keep our sight on the One who is perfection itself. So be kind to yourselves, have a cup of tea or coffee and enjoy time with Him today.

Blessings, my friends – Vicki